chemistry? chem-killing-me (jk life's good)
so junior year has begun (it's week 3) and i haven't said the s-word yet. do you wanna guess what it is? no? okay it's "stressed". no this does not count because i haven't said it out loud. but all play aside, junior year is rolling and i'm kind of... (i can't believe i'm about to say this...) happy?
yeah, i'm surprisingly optimistic and more relaxed this year and i have no idea what's changed. well, i have a few ideas. first off, i'm taking 5 classes instead of the 7 i took last year, i dropped history (...meaning put it off till senior year), and am taking two sciences instead. to clarify, i'm taking fewer classes, and most of them i like. chemistry 2 is so difficult but it is known at my school to be the hardest class offered. we got back a test today about which my mom was more stressed out about than me (another new thing) and i got a b+. that's not good news to my mother, but i told her casually, and she got sad or disappointed or worried or whatever it is asian mothers feel. and you know what? it's end of story. i'm fine. no waterworks no nothing. i went back to dance class for the first time after two months, didn't get yelled at, didn't collapse. went out to lunch with two family friends (a lunch that has been in the planning for 5 months now, cancelled thrice). i'm going to a museum tomorrow with school friends. i posted a cute instagram photo. got cute glasses.
there's no drama at school (yet). i've gone to bed at decent times. i've got all my homework done (well all the important stuff anyways). it feels so strange to be happy. or content at least. like i'm going mushroom hunting this weekend with friends how crazy is that (long story). i'm also running environmental club and the school newspaper which is a lot of work but it's fun work, so things are happening for me.
i'm busy but bees are busy too and bees seem to have good lives.
xoxo
-a
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